I have been absent from the blogosphere for some time now, I still read blogs here and there but I haven’t written in so long. I felt like I was in a rut, then I was just uninspired, and finally I realised I’m just not into the same things I once was. And that’s okay.
For years all I wanted to do was blog and blog about beauty and the latest makeup trends, but now I’m just not there anymore. I still love beauty and skincare but it is not a priority to me. I am so much more focused on my personal growth and development.
There are so many things I have tried to ignore and brush under the carpet for years, not to hide anything but more so to keep plodding along without having to deal with the hard stuff.
I have high functioning anxiety, I was diagnosed with General anxiety disorder when I was 18. I just tried to ignore it but as I got older it got worse. Also as adulting became more difficult it became more present. High functioning anxiety is a hard one to wrap your head around as being the control freak I am, I can suppress it and control it . . . Unit I can’t.
I never dealt with grieving for my Mum. She passed away 5 years ago.
I also suffer from clinical depression. However this is something I haven’t quite come to terms with myself. As. . . I don’t feel depressed. Silly I know because I understand that is not what depression is. I’ve known that I suffer from depression for 8 years but I have not tried to seek help. Remember I’m a control freak.
Don’t get me wrong, this is not a sad post, I’m not in a bad place. I’m just in a space of growth. So rather than blogging about aesthetics (which I do still love) I want to blog about real life.
So my blog will be changing, I want to focus on wellbeing and lifestyle also I’m going to start doing recipes as I am quite the cook if I do say so myself.
My blog will be experience based, real life. A safe space for real meaningful conversations and shared experiences.